a life in the day.

my eye looks pretty effin` gorgeous.

Sally Hansen goes, that is all.

love.

me thinkin` I`m cute, lol.

random wishes.

not my mouth or ears, no. but they will be in about two years. I think i`ll get all four I want at once. so that`s my tongue, industrials in both of my ears and I want a vch piercing. look that one up, lol. don`t want to put a visual of it on my blog, lol. kinda porn-ish, but shit, if I want it still in two more years, it shall be mine haha.

and yes, I know people have opinions about others with tongue rings and other body piercings, but frankly I`ve grown up not to give a fuck. I march to beat of my own drum. personally, I think its just another medium of self expression.

If i still have this blog, I`ll totally video document it.

I`m so excited =)

what im thinking right now //

numero uno; things I have to say before the eighteenth of august.

by way of mouth, words, text messages, or this here blog;

Words cannot express how proud I am of you right now. I may not have been there to watch the full transition from kid to collegiate, but what I have seen is enough. Tomorrow, you will be leaving on your way to a totally new chapter in your life. You`re the bestest bestfriend I`ve never had. I remember the summer before last, what an emotional wreck we deemed eachother; what we wanted to fix, things we wanted to change, go way and get better. How we continuously used our phones to share our lives. How unseparable we were, the bond we were forming. Years have passed, and that bond has only gotten stronger. I can feel you, even if you`re 690+ miles away. I feel that you`re scared shitless, excited, regretful to leave the nest but happy that you`ve made it through highschool. We`ve managed to escape all the bullshit, all the tears, most of the hurt, the aggravation from the past and overcome so much. And become the people that we`re supposed to be. I`m more happy for you than you think. You were always the more emotionally expressive twin. I`m writing this here because if I say it to you, to anyone, I`ll cry...harder than you are probably right now. Everyone that I`ve told about you, that you`re leaving off to college soon, that you`re my best friend, they say, "Oh, well...I don`t think you guys will be as close anymore, she`ll have other things to do." I get so mad and then I have to remember that they don`t know what we`ve already been through. Even you sometimes doubt our bond`s longevity, but I`m gonna always be here to listen. A few more miles and more responsibilties will not change that. I just hope you don`t grow up too much and find me completely immature. Funny thought, right? I hope it won`t happen, I have a feeling it won`t, even if I have to chant something every Sunday along with my "I will have a good week this week" mantra to help that along. Bring more positivity with positivity. It`s just a fear that pops up in the back of my head. Anyway, back to where I was going with this. I`m just writing to clear my head of all I`ve been thinking this summer about this change. I don`t usually like changes. The fact that I may not be able to talk to you as much, or our schedules won`t mesh very well, or you might not have a laptop as soon as you`d like is something we`ll just have to deal with because I`m in it for the long run =D Not letting this go, not without a fight. I`m excited - no excuse me, I`m very excited for you. And I`m sorry I don`t ever sound like it when we talk about it on the phone. It`s just all of these thoughts reeling around in my head at once and it gets hard to focus on just being happy / excited when there`s so much else inside. Don`t get sad about some of these feelings, because I`ll get over it once I hear how happy you are. Because that`s what a best friend does for a best friend. Support eachother. You`ve held your end of the bargain, but we`re not done yet. I love you, and I`m proud of you, Chelsea. HOT DAMN YOU`RE A COLLEGE STUDENT [ pumps fist ]!

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numero dos; this could be something, the sequel.

that was written for a reason, oh yes oh yes;

I mean, it`s not serious or anything, but - you still cross my mind sometimes. I don`t regret. Just goin` through those "what if`s". I`m sure you understand. Better yet, I know you understand. Met under the wrong circumstances. Usually, I`m r&b, hip hop with a dash of punk rock. But with you, I could`ve been soft jazz, maybe even your acoustic guitar. At this moment, by myself, with my thoughts, I`m neo-soul. Maybe, maybe, maybe...maybe if you were this, maybe if I were that. Maybe if you were available, maybe if my morals weren`t so strong. I`m not the type of person who dwells on the end, but this was something different. It could`ve been completely something else but God didn`t want that so he didn`t do so. I`ve learned not to question him. Truly, you are unlike anyone I`ve ever met. With or without those feelings I`ve tossed aside. Like snowstorms in Africa, or hurricanes in China. Different, unbelievable, beautiful, possibly distructive... Never met anyone that had so strong of a hold on my interest. You kept me guessing, I love meeting people that can do that because not very many can. You give me hope, maybe there is someone with a soul as beautiful as yours out there for me. What I`ve accepted is that you`re not the one to fill that void I silently search for with my heart. I can honestly say I`m saddened by that, but we live and we learn. We live and we grow. With this experience, I take it and I use it to continue to grow into that person im destined to be. All I can say, and the last thing I will say about us, you, me and this is thankyou.

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P.S. - i think this blog is helping me better express myself. and P.P.S. my thoughts are very long winded, hence how long this is, lol.

music that evokes emotion out of me.

You know how when you listen to a song, and it gives you those "damn, i understand this" goosebumps? And you know exactly how it feels just by the way they sing it? These songs do that to me, everytime. It never fails...

Still In Love, Beyoncé.

" you're my husband, you are my doctor, counselor, provider, professor, my everything...and I love you I love you I love you, yes I love you I, I need you I need you I need you, I cant live without you, I trust you I trust you with every ounce of me, just teach me, boy teach me - just take me, when we make love I can feel all your spirit deep inside of me, baby you`re so pure. I`m kissing you, forever and ever and ever, I love kissing you, kissing you, kissing you and I love everything about you, it`s been soo many years since we fell in love... "

Old Lovas, Dwele.

" I'm hoping that this is not a dream cause that would mean, one of us would have to leave ... depending on who is the dreamer and who's the dreammee. regardless we both are here, so let's find love 'till our golden years. 'till the Heavens close & our eyes open ... I hope I aint dreamin`, and I hope that we can, till we're - old lovas, young at heart, puppy lovers, big ol` kids - both of us, co-exist, hand in hand, we will be ripe old lovas. "

It Would Be You, Trey Songz.

" you are my love, and my love for you girl is all that I need if I had nothing more, than our love, our love, I`d be just fine with our love. your shoes can`t be filled, they cannot wear your heels, my truth is in you - there is nothing as real, as our love - I`ll be just fine as long as you`re by my side, woman if you ever took your love away, then I could truely say I`d die right here today. don`t give me the world, I just want my girl - if I could have anything, I put that on everything ... that it would be you you you you, I just want you you you. "

public service announcement.

I`m gonna start off with things I tweeted yesterday after I woke up.

damn, lmao. last night / this mornin was funnnnn. man im doin the most this summer haha =D staying on the phone from 9 PM till 6 AM with the wife, laughin` about dumb shit. oh and we ( me & Alexis ) are starting a graphic production. cause bitches don`t be graphic makin`, they be graph-fakin.

Graph-fakin. A word that I came up with in less than 5 seconds. I`ve only been a "graphic designer" for like three, going-on-four years in October but damn. I know enough to know the unspoken rules of being such. For the past year, or so, people`ve been hyping some lame ass, half done ass graphics and frankly I`m starting to get offended. Rule number one, when you make graphics, don`t leave any stone unturned. That means you need to check, check, and double check your shit. Make sure you`ve blended every texture, that the font goes well with the overall theme and that it`s readable / easy on the eyes, layer settings are right, colors or lack thereof are poppin, that things are angled the way you want, placed where you want & everything is one hundred because after its all said & done....that graphic represents you. Your visions, your art, your talent, your creativity. So if you half ass a graphic, - especially if it`s for somebody else - that`s a bad look (rule number two, what you create represents you. even moreso if you`re making it for someone else`s use, so take pride in it and aim for perfect execution). Luckily, I`ve had plenty to turn to if I got stuck with something. Wifey was actually my graphic mentor & if it wasn`t for her inspiring me, I would never be as dope as she says I am. So, kissesssss ;-) haha. With some people, they have all the drive in the world, take the initiative in the business aspects of their craft, but don`t bring it that hard with the product. What`s the point, then? The night I mentioned in my tweets, me and L got one someone`s helmet about overthinking (rule number four, no overthinking-) a concept (and fucking it up completely because it`s too complicated &). Babe, overthinking just makes it commit suicide. Just like underthinking (rule number four cont., no underthinking-) it (because that will make people have to ask what the hell its supposed to be). And half assing (rule number three, no half assing) it.

And rule number fckin` five, respectively, do not let personal relationships or shadows of personal relationships or signs of a personal relationship blossoming hinder your business relationship.

To further break that down;

DO NOT LET STUPID ASS DREAMS OF BEING FRIENDS / THE HISTORY OF ONCE BEING A FRIEND / THE POSSIBILITY OF BECOMING A FRIEND WITH YOUR CLIENT SUPERCEDE THE FACT THAT YOU STILL HAVE MADE AN OBLIGATION TO MAKE THEIR GRAPHICS, THATS IT. If they want a friend in you, they`ll come to you. Being over-sensitive & clingy makes them regret even having you in their promotion team. Keep it all corporal and not hoe-motional.

Okay, let`s run it back.

#1 - Don`t leave any stone unturned, check your work.

#2 - What you create represents you, especially if you`re making it for someone else`s use, so don`t fuck up.

#3 - No half assing is allowed. You don`t feel like it, don`t do it. All ass plus extra, or no ass at all.

#4 - No over / underthinking. It just fucks shit up, either way.

#5 - Personal relationship or not, focus on strengthening the business relationship.

Have a nice day.

my potential second wife =D [ pause lmao ].

LaShontae Heckard.

that is all.

P.S, I just used pause cause Marcel did in one of his tweets and boy was that shit funny. Lawd, lol...

el libras <3

Eric Jerome Dickey edition.

I love him, and don`t get it twisted.

That last book, Resurrecting Midnight is the fourth in his "Gideon" series and releases on the 24th of this month.

Guess who`s goin` to cop it.