a life in the day.

my eye looks pretty effin` gorgeous.

Sally Hansen goes, that is all.

love.

me thinkin` I`m cute, lol.

music that evokes emotion out of me.

You know how when you listen to a song, and it gives you those "damn, i understand this" goosebumps? And you know exactly how it feels just by the way they sing it? These songs do that to me, everytime. It never fails...

Still In Love, Beyoncé.

" you're my husband, you are my doctor, counselor, provider, professor, my everything...and I love you I love you I love you, yes I love you I, I need you I need you I need you, I cant live without you, I trust you I trust you with every ounce of me, just teach me, boy teach me - just take me, when we make love I can feel all your spirit deep inside of me, baby you`re so pure. I`m kissing you, forever and ever and ever, I love kissing you, kissing you, kissing you and I love everything about you, it`s been soo many years since we fell in love... "

Old Lovas, Dwele.

" I'm hoping that this is not a dream cause that would mean, one of us would have to leave ... depending on who is the dreamer and who's the dreammee. regardless we both are here, so let's find love 'till our golden years. 'till the Heavens close & our eyes open ... I hope I aint dreamin`, and I hope that we can, till we're - old lovas, young at heart, puppy lovers, big ol` kids - both of us, co-exist, hand in hand, we will be ripe old lovas. "

It Would Be You, Trey Songz.

" you are my love, and my love for you girl is all that I need if I had nothing more, than our love, our love, I`d be just fine with our love. your shoes can`t be filled, they cannot wear your heels, my truth is in you - there is nothing as real, as our love - I`ll be just fine as long as you`re by my side, woman if you ever took your love away, then I could truely say I`d die right here today. don`t give me the world, I just want my girl - if I could have anything, I put that on everything ... that it would be you you you you, I just want you you you. "

back in mobile/late nite action =)

Yes, meet SWEETSprinkles.

[ to go along with my whole Bakery / Cupcake themed-life-lol ]

She`s delighted to meet you.
She will also be the helper of my late night blogs, because yes, blogger works on Safari, so I`m excited.

=)

something // aubrey drake graham.

falling, too fast / clearly - rules don't apply /can't believe that I just met you...
you got me here / watching minutes pass by, / wondering when to expect you.

there you go... / is this a dream? / looking like every picture that I've seen of you before / I've seen it all before...
now that it's over -

shoulda known better than to think this was real and you could be mine.
I shoulda known better, slowed it down, cause I feel you needed time.
but I kept thinking -

this could be something...this could be something, this could be something
this could be, this could be,
this could be something...this could be something, this could be something
maybe it's just nothing at all
but this could be something...

this could be something, this could be somethingthis could be, this could be,this could be something...this could be something, this could be something

maybe it's just nothing at all, at all, at all - maybe it's just nothing at all, at all, at all...

I guess it's what we make it... I guess it's what we make it -


I guess it's what we make it.

chapter three.

Right now, I’m sealing letter nine. I don’t think I can go on like this. My nightmares are getting gorier, more realistic, and that only happens when I’m keeping something from him. I don’t wanna confess to something I’m not sure of. Last night, he didn’t get to call me, but he text me before then. I didn’t feel like sleeping last night. I couldn’t sleep; my mind was so busy with memories. I like to think that he can’t sleep very well without me either, just so that I know he’s feeling the same. Today, my Mac Book Pro came in the mail and I’m excited. Now we can iChat. My mother sensed my happiness and immediately made it bitter sweet. “Brandy, I don’t understand why that boy is so important to you.” It’s becoming hard to bite my tongue. She continued. “He ate, slept and breathed you. Used to be over here at all times of the night comforting you. I think he’s just feeding your abundant, unhealthy need for attention.” Abundant, unhealthy need for attention? If you would’ve provided me with it, I wouldn’t have gone elsewhere. So, since I found someone willing to fill a void in my life, you call it unhealthy? This woman needs therapy. See, this is why I don’t come out of my room. She continues to pick at a wound I’m trying to heal. “I think this time apart is good. Maybe you two’ll see how much you don’t need eachother.” Pushed the wrong button. I said, “That’s exactly why. You don’t try to understand. You jump to conclusions. I don’t have to worry about being analyzed around him, unless I want to. Or told what to do. Or ignored. Or brushed off. I don’t need you to do this right now, because I don’t want to have to hurt your feelings” and with that, I took my laptop upstairs. I’m mad that people are not trying to understand how hard this is for us. All my life, the only people who truly have an understanding of me have been my twin and my best friend. Chelsea’s with her boyfriend most of the time, happy, and I don’t wanna fuck that up with my problems. It`s bad enough we share the same soul and brain, so whether she wants to or not, she’ll always feel a little bit of what I feel. I wish everybody would just accept that some friendships will never die. I’m tired of us having to constantly prove ourselves. No alternative motives. People are constantly trying to bring us down. Maybe that’s why I haven’t completely gone crazy. We are not a lost cause. No matter how far away or how many nights I cry, it still won’t be enough to give up. Even if he can’t be with me at night. I can’t just quit on him, because I’d like to think he needs me. Now, more than ever, so close to his dreams. And I need him just as much…