graphical spotlight.

http://i352.photobucket.com/albums/r335/lovebombb/eightbeyonceicons.png

[ giggles ]

click for full size.

im in lust with my own designs.

People To Watch Out For; Numero Uno.

Electric Brandon ;

ill.

Producer, knows his way around HTML / Photoshop & just started in photography. An all-around-artist with a nice taste in music, lol.

He made this beat ^_^.

http://www.zshare.net/audio/612507028d8b1c01/

http://www.flickr.com/electricbrandon

http://behind-the-arts.blogspot.com/

http://myspace.com/electricbrandon

@ELECTRICBRANDON on Twitter.

So, look out for this guy.

overdose on scent.

I am in love with these two bottles of lotion. So much, that this is an ode.

Ode to Peony Body Lotion & Nectarine x Raspberry Hand & Body Lotion.

Congratulations, it's crack.

Random sidebar.

For some reason, I always felt that the lotion you wear should compliment the soap / bodyspray you use. I.E, you use Pear Glacé body wash, then you use the same, or a pear & another scented lotion / spray if not the same. So recently, I started using Dove Nectarine & White Ginger body wash, and it's sex. Literally. Walking around town, makin' dudes think I'm carrying fruit.

Oh, Random Sidebar #2

I`m addicted to smelling good, especially citrus scents.

Think that's because I live in the Orange State. Here`s some of what I've used, would like to use, or use now. Victoria's Secret Halo x Very Sexy x mostly all of the bodysprays / Bath & Body Works - Midnight Pomegrantate x Pink Grapefruit x Tropical Passionfruit x Country Apple x Sensual Amber x Cool Waters / Paris Hilton (Her first scent was sex & I'm feining for some more of that) / Marc Jacobs / Sweet 16 / Lacoste "Dream of Pink"...Yeah, I think that's it, but you know, there's nothing like good `ol Herbal Oil, Cocoa Butter, or Johnson & Johnson.

Ode to them as well.

That is all =D

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

To Alexis, Jermaine & Jenae.

These cakes are for you guys, appropriately lol.

currently ;

waiting for my best friend Derrick to call me back.
hmm, we've been bffs for like four years and I trust him with my everything. plus that nigga is funny lmaoo. so, this blog is dedicated to you, buddy =D

ily, <3bee.

emotional clarity.

You never realize how much you hold inside until it's all fighting to be let go. When you feel like you're on your last leg of sanity. Something has to give, right? Your brain stem taps in and braces you for the mental cleansing. In the past couple months, everything I've felt has built up to this point of freedom. I already am a "stress internalizer", so frankly this was not something I needed. It started off as just being overtly too happy, then excited, and as I overthought my excitement, my imagination went wild. Anybody that knows me on a personal level, knows that I only need a little inch of freetime and one statement to take into as many different contexts as possible and develop this whole living organism of thoughts. That keep me up at night, entertain me even when it's not the right time to. I mean, I enjoy it when it's not severe. I let it grow, with no restraints and found myself in a horrible place filled with anxiety, doubt, frustration and over-analyzation. A place that I have no control of, a place that lives in all of us as human beings, no matter how "emotionally stable" you think you are. Needless to say, I needed to get out of there fast because as a person that feeds off positive energy and even recycles my own, I was being starved. There was an extent to how happy I could be. The last two posts were proof of that. True happiness has no limitations. I think what finally pulled me out of that slump was having somebody say they were feeling the same way I was that didn't really know me that well to have just been saying it to make me happy. Empathy. People forget how small things like that can make alot of difference. It's the littlest things that take me there, like Lily Allen said. For me, it's always a person I wouldn't expect to make me feel better. Something really cool happened, a while ago too and aside for the giggle and occasional, "Oh my life, that was funn..." I'm not even over-thinking it. Some things need that much attention, and ones that make you happy usually don't. Just go with the flow...=D

there really isn`t a point to this one...

I`m very frustrated right now. A small part of me feels like I fuck up everything for myself. It`s enough to make me feel that way in almost every situation I`m in. Maybe I place too much of my mind into one thing, and as many times as I do that I never seem to get the same amount of whatever I was looking for back. Won`t go into detail as to what I`m talking about, because frankly I`m getting a bit tired of it being the only thing on my mind all the time. Giving one person/object/thought so much attention, when I shouldn`t. When it`s nothing, really. Spending too much energy trying to analyze things, people, and just forget to go with the flow. And not only do I use up energy, I usually get fucked over at the end and have to pick myself up off the floor. I mean, I can`t help it because its in my nature. But I`m tired of always fucking things up by overthinking every little sentence, or dream, or whatever. Letting it control my emotions. So right now, I say fuck it.

I`m gonna go with the flow again.

P.S. i just read this over, and I didn`t mean to say the word fuck like, [ counts ] 5 times, including in this sentence. I didn`t mean for it to come off like I was mad. But then again, frustration and anger run pretty close to eachother. Frustration has more thinking involved, when anger is just a feeling that stems from emotional/mental/physical pain or displeasure.