I guess I should follow my own words...
"eventually, everything will be okay..."
I say that alot, and I`m trying to figure out is it because I psyche myself out or is it because I try to make other people see. I`m a girl young woman, with dreams, with goals, I have my own problems, my own vices, I tend to have an overactive imagination, I try not to overreact, I spread my love because I know that sometimes people don`t get enough of it & to fix that I try to love everybody, I keep a level head in bad situations just because I know that people are prone to freakin` out. I listen to others when they need an ear because I`d rather help somebody with their own problems, than face my own. I keep a positive bubble to take refuge in, in the midst of negativity coming from all sides. I never seem to stay that way. Someone puts their bad feelings against the side of my bubble and it pops before I even have the time to apprieciate it. And when it does get bad, I never take my own advice. How`ve I become the poster child for something I don`t preach? Right now, things are spinning out of control too fast and I don`t really believe I`ll be able to handle it if this shit decides to hit the fan. My mom`s sitting up in a hospital, everyone`s emotions are running high & my father thinks that pushing his anger and frustration out on everyone else will help us. Not at all. I don`t know how long I`ll be able to say to myself, "eventually, everything will be okay..." Maybe we should take up Yoga or suttin` cause I`m losing it over here.
